a crowded mind

my sister
my other sister
my parents
myself
all dealing with a terrible thing

my husband
the distance between us as i wait to join him in a new city
the struggles at his new job
the email i received today announcing the vacancy i created
the *@#! book fair

the move
leaving my friends for the past four years
leaving my students
leaving the ocean, the east coast
mostly just leaving

change
finding a new job
interviewing
being the new kid for the millionth time
trying to make a good impression
spending hours on paperwork
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these are the thoughts that fight for space in my mind and break free in the form of tears. i'm so excited, so terrified, so devastated, so thrilled, so nostalgic, so scared, so nervous, so exhilarated.

inheriting my mother's 'crying genes' is so not helpful right now.

i long for april 30. better yet, september 30.

moving

Not only do I lead a nomadic life in the flesh, I also lead one in cyberspace.

This is home #5 [?] for my personal thoughts.

On an entirely different note: HI TWIN!!!

was that extra money worth not being the party pooper? verdict is still out.

a word of advice:

DO NOT split the bill when you go out to eat in a large group unless everyone has ordered the same thing. or unless you are all rich and spending $32 on dinner for one doesn't cause you to say aloud 'are you joking?' three times. tonight i went out with coworkers, and had a blast, until the bill arrived. i spent 7.99 on my entree, 2.50 on dessert, and i got a soda. i felt like i was already splurging. so with tip i spent approximately $14. oh no wait, i have to pay for everyone else's steak and alcohol. so add $18 to that.

i hate to say this ruined my night...i hope i won't remember it when i look back on this night...but just please

take my advice.

Napoleon

My cat is snoring. It's incredibly cute. And it makes me want to take a nap even more than before, but I can't because the electrician is here, and the last thing I need is for him to walk in on ME snoring. Pisser.