one week down...

1. read 3 books
2. inherited 2 perfect, comfy reading chairs
3. planned 5 nights of fun for my campers
4. went to the library too many times
5. talked on the phone to my twin for hours
6. went to a GREAT concert with a GREATER friend
7. bought 2 new cds
8. drank too many frappucinos and other frozen type drinks
9. cried at small group
10. loved church on sunday morning
11. had a great date with my husband
12. baked a cake
13. packed some boxes for someone else to move. [wow, that's a switch!]
14. slept a lot
15. got really good at my hip-hop dance workout...then had to return the dvd
16. watched a movie i've been wanting to see for months
17. did housework that i've been wanting to do for months
18. spent much-needed time with old, dear friends
19. helped a teen girl pick out books at the local library

Roll out those lazy, hazy, crazy days of summer

i'm really grateful for summer, and the chance to renew friendships.



i'm battling my bedroom. i want to rearrange things, but i can't move the dresser because of the ridiculously thick carpet. and i dont' feel like unhooking the tv/vcr/etc and messing with all those cords.

it would be so much easier to retreat to the living room, where i've battled and won, and read a book in my cozy new chair.

however...i will force myself to work another hour, then shower and eat dinner before church.



camp is so soon!

good things

andrew got me the new keane cd and i love it.
school is finally out.
i have a huge stack of books that i am excited to read.
camp is in 17 days, 22 hours, and 56 minutes.
jen and i are co-counselors!
we're in the nicest cabin.
did i mention it's summer?

and the best news of all...

andrew has a job interview on friday.

time to wash dishes.
and make a cake.
just call me a housewife.

in like Flynn

i love the feeling of accomplshing something and then having concrete, visual results. i often miss this feeling in my career. so today, working around the house, continuing to unpack and settle in, i feel triumphant. even if i haven't showered yet.

'friend' to loser in 2.5 seconds

i'm steaming. and not just cause i came home and the house was all closed up and i haven't changed out of my work clothes.

work. now there's a four letter word.

i've come to realize that my so-called 'work friends' are hardly friends at all. they don't understand me, don't respect me, don't include me. i have little to no desire to hang out with them outside of the school walls. perhaps they know this and this is why they don't invite me.

well, in the last 2 days i tried to make an attempt, which failed miserably.

i asked if everyone was going out for drinks on the last day of school, and they said 'no, we are going out the friday before. but we could do it tuesday instead.' so today at lunch we decided to go out tuesday. then as we were leaving, tim said something about dinner and i realized that i have bible study at 7. i thought we were going out right after school [like they usually do] for a drink, but i guess it turned into something bigger. so i said that i forgot about a committment on tuesday night at 7, and when asked 'what?' i said i had church. i was promptly laughed at, told to skip it, and called a loser.

nice.

i can't stand it anymore. i hate eating lunch with these people everyday. they are so vulgar, always talking about sex explicity, and gossipping about anyone they can think of.

but how do i leave my clique? i can only imagine what they would say. and the enemies i'd be making.

i dread next fall. hopefully 2 people that i am friends with that are genuine, caring people will be hired. and we can start our own lunch group.

otherwise, i don't know what i will do.

Tuesday night

Driving home, I thought for a second that it was friday.
When I realized my error, I was so happy that I didn't even care.

I live for these carefree, content moments,
with the wind in my hair,
blowing my worries away.

I am so glad I decided to go tonight.

Small group lifted my spirits in a big way.

a 'hoot'

i saw 'hoot' this weekend. [before i became deathly ill] it was pretty cute. i liked it. i know they changed a lot of things from the book, though. it's a good thing i read the book like 5ish weeks ago and my memory doesn't last that long! but yeah. go read the book. AND THEN see the movie. you will not be disappointed.

i went with one of my kids and her mom. i thought the kid would die of shock/wonder/awe when i got into her car. i asked her if it was weird to see me NOT in school and she yelled 'yeah!' what a cutie. no really, she is. right now though i am so sick of kids. i can't believe i HUNG OUT with a kid on a weekend! there must be something seriously wrong with me. though later that day i did become ill so as you can see, i was coming down with something. thus, hanging out with a student on a saturday.

so then saturday afternoon on the way home from the movie i became pretty sick feeling...of course it might have been the small popcorn with butter that i consumed with a giant bottle of water. popcorn should never be consumed with water. but my sore throat and better judgement forced me to order water. and drink it with my popcorn. thus, major naseau insued.

plus, when i got home and my throat was killing me and i could hardly breathe, i took 2 cold medicine pills AND 2 excedrin sinus headache pills...and i believe this added to my stomach stupidness.

so yesterday i seriously did not get out of my pjs all day. i haven't done that in a long time. i couldn't even get myself to make a quick run to rent a movie. even though i really wanted to watch one. i settled for watching part of 'saved the last dance' and most of 'never been kissed' on tbs. and i read pretty much an entire book. it was ok, the ending was cool but not as satisfying as i would have hoped. and i got grades done for 20 of my 30 classes. and watched '13 going on 30.'

when i was doing my grades, i was seriously tempted to look at the 2nd graders and make a list of the ones i will be SO HAPPY NOT to have next year. hahaha. i think i will do that tonight.

so today i came to school. what can i say, i'm a masochist.

the worst part of my day was when i tried to yell at some kids and my voice just refused to get any louder. it's a sad day when i can't yell at my kids.

and that brings us to now. thank GOODNESS i had a shorter day today, 5 classes instead of 6. woot. so at 2:05 the kids all left. how sad. and i seriously considered asking the office people if i could just go home then instead of waiting another hour and 25 minutes. gross. but alas, i am waiting it out. i don't really feel THAT bad right now.

after work i am going to the library to get a movie to show the kids tomorrow so i don't have to talk to them. hahaha. that is my goal for the end of the year. talk to the kids as little as possible.

only 9.5 more days with the little buggers.